Please read this for me, and answer the question: WHAT?
On Tue, 21 Dec 1999 19:29:25 GMT, "Kyfho (Keep Your Free Hands Off)"
<Kyfho@angelfire.com> wrote, in alt.mindcontrol:
}Topic in my reality tunnel:
}
}Much praise, much confusion.
}
}My mind seems to have become an animated example of effects of
}psychotronic devices on my life, and seems to be indicating exactly
}what it stimulates within my body. Pretty much seems to indicate
}effects of television on my body over time, but in such roundabout
}fashion that I cannot seem to analyze it except in certain ways.
}
}Effect seems like mind control device in visual field continuously
}distracting my vision, dictating observations in such manner as to
}imply events
}
}Also implying that mind control could not be done to someone like me,
}else it would look like <this continuing experience>.
}
}It seems not like paranoid schizophrenia as I suspected, since
}animations seem way too contrived and plotted, as if by some sort of
}artificial intelligence.
}
}I seem to have been victimized as a result of television, and now I
}seem to have wound up in equivalent of "imprisoned," but why. . .I do
}not know that I know.
}
}End effect looks kind of like some sort of aspect of self just
}swimming with ideas
}
}Music in harmony with words can seem to imply consistent states of
}emotional being, which may happen to be quite easy for psychotronic
}device to produce real-time effects on on
}
}One scenario seems rather to be blaming the victim (i.e., most of me)
}Some barely uncountable number of things my attention gets drawn to
}(select components of my eye, I think. . .), points to data in
}brilliant display of my gazing at it in a scene with me transfixed as
}if by some speaker unknown (whom I rather get the impression seems to
}SEEM somewhat enigmatic, though I rather seem inclined to type the
}word "crazy" as what seems to me to be an accurate description), and
}you would understand what I mean if you could read and interpret
}fiction novels and comprehend descriptions of characters' personality
}traits therein.
}
}Another scenario rather seems like some devious mastermind, perhaps
}working in some high position on some space alien council in order to
}do its job of being fed up with people for not seeing world exactly
}as SHe sees it. Maybe wears a cerebral helmet, operates under certain
}assumptions that one of Hir abducted victims happens to be male, and
}in actuality happens to be female who gets tortured and labeled as
}male for her feminine behavior.
}
}End effect: it seems to try to change sumbunall data in my mind (not
}exactly like erasure), and seems to have dispersed Recall ability
}amidst its method or program.
}
}Program seems like social interface for doing what you want to do.
}Seems to have pre-set personality types which, if it were even
}possible to put helm on, one might find oneself with an
}alien-engineered persona from which to navigate one's personal
}affairs with particular people. Except, I'm rather skeptical I would
}want a number of mind control parameters governing my relations with
}other people, particularly from an unknown source which has not
}revealed itself to people in a sure way. For example, if I were to
}have said I've seen aliens, I have not seen actual aliens I could
}touch. I may have seen an illusion of aliens broadcast to my senses
}which may have been during a dream, having perhaps most qualities of
}real-life experience, and I have had some of these before, but I have
}not met an actual alien unless it were disguised as a person. And
}this might rather seem funny. . .
}
}But how can one tell the difference between mind control and one's
}own naturally intelligent mind? I'm rather uncertain. Knowing what my
}mind has been capable of, I can say that from what I know about how
}other people think actually seems confined to reading others' writing
}and watching others express their opinions.
}
}The addition of annoying fairies to my normal operating procedure
}seems to have obscured vital information flow which might
}equilibriate me. The result seems to indicate some sort of
}holographic-like cache of an image which actually seems/feels like it
}happens to have two points of neural attachment.
}
}I don't exactly want to plot experiences with others out in full
}exactitude, as that would render irrelevant spontaneity. However, as
}an alien, it could seem like I have an entire scenario worked out in
}advance and that I merely express myself knowing how you will behave
}in advance. What artwork, I say. I rather doubt I'll ever meet one of
}these beings, but if I did, I might wonder whether a psychotronic
}device happened to control such experience for both of us.
}
}Take notice of idea of equating certain _______ with particular
}nouns.
}
}
}Aliens seem to be communicating alien humor:
}
}Scene: television broadcast beaming through one's body Actor comedian
}made up as me (a bit zoned and confused): What's this thing doing in
}my head? Relaxed person: That's my cock/cunt.
}
}Clue: some people seem acclimitized to idea of television while
}Clue: others do not seem to be.
}
}Earlier today broadcast materialized as myself surrounded by fields
}and fields of bodily vibrations which I could only see in part of my
}mind. Animated fairies attached neurally somehow kind of seemed to be
}sending message that this kind of thing was not exactly possible,
}because seeing such stuff in my mind alone in my home does not imply
}that others have fields which I could glimpse. However, since it
}might seem fun to view reality in such fashion, it might challenge
}others to draw interesting conclusions were I to let them in on my
}psychic abilities.
}
}It seems that sensing energy in one's environment may be natural, but
}it also seems that sensing animated fairies in one's mind may not be
}naturally occurring, unless they somehow get put there by a source
}other than me.
}
}Indications seem to imply that my mind used to be programmed for
}variety of different functions relating to some energy forms in
}neural memory, which may have seemed like options for
}excitement/entertainment. I could choose among such options as I saw
}fit. Perhaps I wanted to turn on TV, having been excited by a program
}I'd been wanting to watch all week. This aspect of my former
}mentality could well have been conditioned by addiction to television
}cycles--like watching a tv program three or two times per week on a
}regular basis, or an exciting program 5 days per week.
}
}It probably may seem like an interesting thing to seem to regard what
}others happen to be doing as being pretty similar and like what one
}does oneself.
}
}I get continuously bombarded with fallacies inherent in idea of being
}psychic. However, it seems unknown why the distracting painlike
}feelings happen to be at my expense. Again, the only possible
}explanation would be mind control, holographic implant or ongoing.
}
}At any rate, my lower area hurts in sync with said animations, and
}though such pain may seem illusion, it certainly seem painful. Its
}inception may be when some stray memories happened to remind me of
}what may have seemed "learning how to hold it" earlier in life.
}
}While this form of life control may seem quite severe, even traumatic
}to live with daily, I do live with it daily, in its various guises.
}Success with feeling better is complemented with very angry
}vocalizations saying something gleefully to the effect of, "don't you
}feel better now, fucker?" Apparent Alien wants revenge for something,
}or it happens to be somewhat sadistic in its torture. I doubt it has
}a purpose. I do not know what it could be. Quite a bit of negative
}imagery comes to mind when I contemplate a particular uncomfortable
}lower area of body. Threatening guns, pain, and other numbers of
}images equally unpleasant. If I try to figure out what has happened,
}I already have an answer pre-provided by the mechanistic workings of
}the machine. It places the idea of whom it was, even though it bears
}little or no relation to anything that makes sense in reality, unless
}some humans have godlike powers over other humans. Which seems
}unlikely.
}
}Perhaps the major theme of my imprisonment seems to be sex. I am
}complained at with the implication that I happen to be the "horniest
}mother fucker I've ever saw in my life" (to quote one annoying alien
}fairy). However, I have certainly not been since the inception or
}activation of this alien torture device--about May '97. The pain
}interferes extremely with pleasure of virtually any sort, although I
}have experienced some degree of comfort on some occasions and rare
}moments of sexual arousal since May '97. Unfortunate thing about this
}seems to imply that I was punished by people in a certain automobile
}because they sensed me. Someone with a devious mind plotted the
}attack, had preselected memories to contextualize and show to its
}helpers, and basically when I encountered what seemed to be psychics
}for the first time, everything went according to plan because of what
}they did to me. But I rather think it was psychotronic device
}arranging both of us to be at approximately the same time and place,
}and that what transpired was coincidental. Incidentally, the
}entities implied themselves to be "God"--aka "God's holy kingdom."
}Which seemed strange because there hadn't been a God in my mind
}before acting in such malicious fashion by actually pretending to
}exist as an English speaking native, and I had been raised in a
}religion believing in God. However, I must admit I was rather amazed
}and compelled by the resulting display. I actually hallucinated
}myself shouting angry words and a bunch of other things that I would
}not actually have done. . .like possession, it actually seemed like
}something wanted me to believe that its version of "God" happened to
}pose a threat to my life unless I . . .well, that part never came
}clear. However, various aliens also came into view which clearly did
}not match angels and looked (in mind's eye, eyes closed) like various
}shapes doing various things, tampering with my mind.
}
}So either I am currently trapped by wizards somewhere locally,
}extending to anywhere across the country I travel to, or I am victim
}of psychotronic device, either in real-time or in holographic array
}(matrix?) of animated cleverness has been implanted, perhaps at any
}time in the past, waiting to be triggered given certain events
}seeming to occur in my mind.
}
}If the data I've read on Internet suggesting that psychotronic
}devices exist and have even been reported in some magazines and some
}newspapers (US News & World Report, Washington Post)--plus some
}books--then equivalent of invasion could have already occurred and
}simply never have been reported due to too few people noticing for
}psychotronic signals to seem important.
}
}I am told, "all your favorite memories are mine and yours both." This
}idea somehow relates to what seems like a compact signal around my
}right eye (not that it is "there" exactly) which if I can manage to
}focus on it can seem to disrupt television broadcast in the room,
}particularly on channel with "snow" on it. Although I'm not sure of
}cause-effect relationship being due to me. Could be part of broadcast
}from psychotronic device broadcasting in real-time.
}
}I find it difficult that I constructed entire scenario, but I really
}do not know.
}
}"I hate you, you fucking pervert." --another phrase from enlightened
}mindless drone fairies.
}
}R.
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